Real is just a matter of perception

Peter Bishop, 35 years old. I was a con man, a nomad then Olivia picked me up in Iraq and all changed. I could be a good guy or a nightmare. Your choice.
(PBishop roleplay tumblr. I answer to anyone would play...)

Olivia please…

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oliviadunhaminthemoon:

peterkbishop:

Olivia please don’t start blaming yourself. Etta will be a gorgeous girl. For us she will be special not ‘cos she has cortexiphan in her system but because she’s our child. Nothing could change that. I know you’re afraid about what could happen to her. I’m afraid too. But…

You are her mother and I’m sure you love her. You know what is like to have something inside you that you don’t request and I am sure you’ll find a way to teach her how to deal with. I’m pretty sure about that.
Besides for what we know nothing could really happen and maybe when Etta grows up may never come to know about this. And if it happen, instead, we will tell her the truth. Pure and simple. 
The only thing we have to worry about is to let her know that we always love her, no matter what.

"Of course I love her Peter, but she shouldn’t have to grow up like I did. She shouldn’t have to feel like she doesn’t belong anywhere, like if anyone found out who she really was they’d all think of her as a freak. And I know, that we’ll always love her, no matter what, but, I don’t want this life for her, I don’t want her struggling to come to terms with what she is. I just want her to have a normal life.”

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She’ll have a normal life, whatever it means. She already have something that neither you nor me had in childhood: parents who will always be with her whatever it could happen and a grandfather who will spoil her only if we let him do. I know what you’re talking about, I really do but… have you ever thought instead that in future she might love being special? 

Olivia please…

Olivia please don’t start blaming yourself. Etta will be a gorgeous girl. For us she will be special not ‘cos she has cortexiphan in her system but because she’s our child. Nothing could change that. I know you’re afraid about what could happen to her. I’m afraid too. But…
You are her mother and I’m sure you love her. You know what is like to have something inside you that you don’t request and I am sure you’ll find a way to teach her how to deal with. I’m pretty sure about that.
Besides for what we know nothing could really happen and maybe when Etta grows up may never come to know about this. And if it happen, instead, we will tell her the truth. Pure and simple. 
The only thing we have to worry about is to let her know that we always love her, no matter what.


oliviadunhaminthemoon
:

"Etta has cortexiphan in her system…I should’ve known she would."

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Some people are uncomfortable with silences. Not me. I’ve never cared much for call and response. Sometimes I will think of something to say and then I ask myself: is it worth it? And it just isn’t. —Miranda July, No One Belongs Here More Than You (via wasthatnotprocedure)
"You’re fireproof. It’s just the way you are…
I wish I was that way.” The national

"You’re fireproof. It’s just the way you are…

I wish I was that way.” The national

Via: karamelka

And it was true. I’ve seen and hear and read so much things that I can’t count. It was like an entire universe to know. The world I was born. And my father… both fathers were there. Now I have two father that understands me, know who I am and, most important, love me. I am a father now and I can barely imagine how was difficult. I can’t give them back what they’ve lost but I’m here. And I love you. Both of you. You don’t have to fight for my love. You have it. 

Happy father’s day to both dads.


"I spent so long imagining going down that path with you. Imagining what it would be like to wake up in a bed next to you. To sit around, just the two of us having a cup of coffee, reading the paper. And then finally, I had it. I’ve seen what the two of us together looks like. And it’s beautiful."

(Picture found here: http://www.carreck.com/)And after than I really had it. The real thing, not some kind of illusion with someone who pretend to be you. So many mornings next to you, Livia, so many and still hardly believe it’s true. Sometimes I wake up early and I just stand there, watching you asleep. You’re so calm, so peaceful. When you open your eyes and give me one bright and sweet smile of yours… let me tell you: best way to start a day! It’s more beautiful than I imagined.

"I spent so long imagining going down that path with you. Imagining what it would be like to wake up in a bed next to you. To sit around, just the two of us having a cup of coffee, reading the paper. And then finally, I had it. I’ve seen what the two of us together looks like. And it’s beautiful."

(Picture found here: http://www.carreck.com/)

And after than I really had it. The real thing, not some kind of illusion with someone who pretend to be you. So many mornings next to you, Livia, so many and still hardly believe it’s true. Sometimes I wake up early and I just stand there, watching you asleep. You’re so calm, so peaceful. When you open your eyes and give me one bright and sweet smile of yours… let me tell you: best way to start a day! It’s more beautiful than I imagined.

Don’t say I never took you anywhere.

I love you, Liv.

So damn true…

So damn true…

If I were less rational than I am, I would say that someone has heard my mood…

If I were less rational than I am, I would say that someone has heard my mood…

Sometimes I feel like something’s missing. I shouldn’t think about it. You know, I’m a father of a beautiful son, I’m in love and being in love with a extraordinary woman like Olivia. I have my family here in this universe and another one in a world where I was born. I could clearly say I am lucky.But sometimes I find myself awake in the night trying to understand why I still feel that something’s missing. Something I could barely see. Maybe it’s just a glympse from the past that haunts me or… I don’t know.I am happy even if I know I could loose everything at anytime.I am loved but there was a time I thought I wasn’t.I have a family, a large one, and I am not alone. No more.I wandered so long and so lonely to realise that home is where my heart is.I hadn’t a home for so long until I found someone who gave me one.And yet I still think there’s a missing piece.A missing piece I yearn to find…

Sometimes I feel like something’s missing. I shouldn’t think about it. You know, I’m a father of a beautiful son, I’m in love and being in love with a extraordinary woman like Olivia. I have my family here in this universe and another one in a world where I was born. I could clearly say I am lucky.
But sometimes I find myself awake in the night trying to understand why I still feel that something’s missing. Something I could barely see. Maybe it’s just a glympse from the past that haunts me or… I don’t know.
I am happy even if I know I could loose everything at anytime.
I am loved but there was a time I thought I wasn’t.
I have a family, a large one, and I am not alone. No more.
I wandered so long and so lonely to realise that home is where my heart is.
I hadn’t a home for so long until I found someone who gave me one.
And yet I still think there’s a missing piece.
A missing piece I yearn to find…

diarycrux:

a challenge for graphic makers, fanfic writers, or whatever outlet it is that you unleash your creativity upon.
strength / weakness
order / chaos
noise / silence
shallow / deep
near / far
lost / found
past / present
emotion / logic
beginning / end
storm / calm
focus / blur
split / whole
vibrant / pale
dawn / dusk
passion / apathy
light / dark

diarycrux:

a challenge for graphic makers, fanfic writers, or whatever outlet it is that you unleash your creativity upon.

  1. strength / weakness
  2. order / chaos
  3. noise / silence
  4. shallow / deep
  5. near / far
  6. lost / found
  7. past / present
  8. emotion / logic
  9. beginning / end
  10. storm / calm
  11. focus / blur
  12. split / whole
  13. vibrant / pale
  14. dawn / dusk
  15. passion / apathy
  16. light / dark
Source: diarycrux Via: ramarika
+ source: diarycrux


“No matter who’s at fault, you are my dad.”

“No matter who’s at fault, you are my dad.”